Confused...@_@

This whole 'two journals' thing is very disorientating..@_@

It's almost 9pm on a Saturday night...I want to go to bed.@_@ Got up at around 12 today and worked endlessly to do math and econ homework. I'll be gone for most of next week, off to national collegiates (for handball) in Missouri (gad, us Californians are gonna DIE there cuz we're not used to the weather..) so I was trying to finish everything I need to turn in...

Was in a depression/funk/odd mood for most of this past week...still feeling inadequate and worried about the future, the like. Probably made worse by the fact that my cold has returned in a very light form, giving me headaches...and of course, handball and taekwondo fight for the right to wear out my body. Mildly wondering what it would be like if I can really make money doing what I like, mainly coming up with crazy ideas/characters and drawing them...Which means I am sorta thinking about putting some effort into drawing a comic/manga of sorts, though of course I picked a horrible time to contemplate it, as usual.

Let's see..midterm come tuesday, have to figure out summer plans (we sorta DID figure them out, now we just need to bug the travel agents and see what the prices are)...going to Taiwan and China again, to see mom and dad. Neither are coming to my graduation but I figured it would save us about $1000 to not buy a ticket for a 3 day stay in the states. As my mom likes to say, the money can be put to better use, like buying yummy food to eat.

I have nightmares about applying to jobs, to grad school, to even talking to people about it. It's like, what have I been doing here in college? Getting nearly straight As, yes, but not networking or talking to professors that much or competing with the more 'elite' business students for internships. A part of me wonder if my view of the world is a bit too skewed from here. It's not like I need to be a financial/economics analyst or manager or accountant to be happy...Not like I die if I don't do research or ponder the great mysteries of economics (and there are quite a few). It's all relative...I guess I just thought that I had been doing the right thing, but in the end I wasn't, at all.

Kinda like inking and coloring a pic and in the end realizing there was a mistake in proportions or anatomy...ugh, sucks.

I would draw (it's been the best stress relief ever) except my head is pounding and my vision's a bit wacky. Typing is easier...I think I'll write.

Majo

today is Friday the 13th!

Yet nothing abnormal happened...

Very tired right now, but I daresay, less sick. Managed to finish the homework due today and even get ahead by a little. I just hope that no assignments were given in the classes that I skipped while sick...

Er, right..in any case, happy Friday the 13th, and tomorrow, happy Valentine's day. Too bad that I don't know any couples in Real Life that I can conveniently congratualate (they're all back home) and none of my OCs are considered romantic by most measurements...

Majo-signing off...

*Crossposted from LJ*

Happiness! [Feb. 10th, 2004|11:13 am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

Well, maybe not *happiness*, per se, but tis a nice feeling.^_^

The morning started off pretty crappy though, come to think of it. Had to get up early, and when my alarm clock rang I had to remind myself that it's not good to destroy the thing that's keeping me on time...@_@

But then I talked to my professor after class, asked some questions and just mingled (there was another girl there too, we had homework due this week and I helped her a bit!). This will help with my professor-aphobia...I'm so proud of myself that I actually went.^_^;;;;

And the other prof that I emailed about the letter of rec wrote back today (after I sent off the second email) saying that she hadn't replied earlier cuz my email got lost in the massive influx of mails she got and that she'd write me a letter, just need some information (transcript, letter of intent, etc) beforehand.

Wow. This is like, totally awesome.^_^;

Now I have to face the prospect of going to Taekwondo while being severely sleep deprived...Even that doesn't sound so bad.^_^;;

And I just printed out my transcript (Cuz the prof that is writing me a letter needed one) and I'm kinda happy with it. VERY annoyed that the math class brought it down, but it's 0.01 point, so I suppose I shouldn't complain...

Two more pics to go for the art trade...I was doodling one in class today, but tis a doodle so it SUCKS.@_@

ACK! Almost forgot!

NOTE TO SELF: MATH 53 HW (FRI), ECON 136 HW (next Tuesday), CHECK MIDTERM DATES, TALK TO BRO ABOUT DAD'S VISIT, $$$ for Collegiates--Soon, and GO TO PROF OFFICE HOURS!

Less urgent is looking up plane tickets for this summer.@_@

Er...right. I shall vegetate for the next half hour until I'm subjected to strenuous exercise for the duration of about an hour...

Majo

Tired...

this is Cross-posted with my LJ journal...

Busy day today, and full day tomorrow. I think from now I'll update both blog and LJ, just to be fair. What a waste though...

Let's see...Added a class so that I'm no longer under-units and can keep the money the scholarships gave me, went over finance hw with the group. Worked up the courage to email a professor about letter of recommendation (Go me!), played handball for a bit over an hour. The problem is now that I'm tired and dirty and STARVING, and I have an hour to either take a shower or eat before I have to retire to bed because of EVIL 8am class tomorrow...

And tomorrow will consist of running to the GSI's office hours for that new class I just added to get some notes on the stuff that I'll have to know for the homework due next monday...@_@ Then I'll be skipping math to go to a dinner for scholarship recipients (of a scholarship I didn't even apply for...but hey, money is money, and if they're giving it to me to pay for the fricking high registration fees, all the better!^_^) in San Francisco. Well, 'dinner' is up in the air. It said 'refreshments will be served' which might not be dinner. If not, I can always go to J-town and get them awesome noodles!!!

I almost wish that they don't serve dinner.^_^;;;

Wow, this entry is incredibly boring.^^; Er...Full metal alchemist is like, the most awesome anime ever! And I'm doing three art trades, and most ppl have requested Slayers and or Hellsing art...I guess that's what I'm good for^_^;

Might start that tomorrow, once I get back...since I won't get into those elitist business classes, I only have ONE class on friday. WHOOT! Triple WHOOT! I haven't had that since...second semester of sophomore year...

Ok..I think I'll shower tomorrow, or something...@_@ I need food!

Majo

*EDIT* BOOK IS RETURNED! $140 back. Hehhh...
*EDIT EDIT* Chrono Crusade is cool too!